Creative Block: I Lost My Spark?
Heyaaaa,
As we step into this new month, I have so many thoughts. Can you blame me? I’m just a girl navigating her twenties, experiencing this world and flow of life for the very first time. Give me a break here, ahaha. It feels like everything is coming at me all at once., everything hittin’ like a frickin’ boulder. Lately, I find myself asking: where did the little child within me go? What happened to the burst of creativity that once filled my every moment, my every thought? Where did my Spark go? WHEW, y’all I-…
As a content creator, it’s my passion and purpose to constantly come up with new ideas. I’m present on nearly every social media platform, because there’s nothing more meaningful to me than to reach and connect with as many people as possible. I absolutely love creating content and engaging with those I meet along the way, but I must confess—I sometimes find myself in a slump when I can’t keep up with the pace. Creative blocks are real. There was a time, particularly in my teenage years, when my mind was overflowing with ideas, so many that I could hardly contain them. Life was challenging then, but I was loaded with talents and energy, full of life and confidence, and completely at ease with myself. So now, I can’t help but wonder—where did that all go?
Life is easier now, so am I missing the pressure that once fueled my creativity? Has life drained so much from me that I’ve simply fell flat? Yikesssss. Has my body, worn by past traumas, become too overwhelmed to fully embrace the goodness that surrounds me today? Did my last romantic relationship dim my spark so much that I can no longer see myself, leaving me with nothing to give but the smallest form of myself that I became during that time? So many questions, so many thoughts.
I miss myself deeply. I miss the spark that once lit up my life. I miss the unstoppable drive I had as a teenager to pour everything I had into the world without a second thought about how I might be perceived. I miss those nights when I was too excited to sleep, eagerly anticipating the content I’d create the next day. I miss being the ultimate CREATIVE. I’m now on a journey to find myself again, and I can’t wait to feel that old energy return. Do I believe I can get my spark back? Absolutely. Y’all I am so flipping young. Like girl, what? I just need to unlearn certain narratives I’ve picked up along the way, and remind myself of who I truly am. It’s time to embrace all that I am once again—without a single care in the world. What do you think? Let me hear (see) your thoughts! I love y’all. Thank you for stopping by!
With love, light, and a rekindled spark,
Ally